April 25, 2004
Sunday
Speech after long
silence, it is right . . .
— William Butler Yeats
The silence here has stretched almost three months, the longest ever.
It is hard to start again. I think I have to give explanations,
detailed updates. The fact is there is no explanation apart from winter
lethargy and my habitual procrastination. Opening the file and getting
familiar again with the routine and the commands that place the words
and pictures approximately where I want them is a lot like
beginning to exercise again. My website muscles are as tight as those
of my hips and thighs. But stretching them feels good, and I find they
remember more than they have forgotten. So . . .
According to the
prompts I occasionally use from Judy Reeves's A Writer's Book of Days, Saturday's
suggestion was to "write about a year ago." Not quite a year ago I
wrote about my junior
prom dancing queen. Last night was Lynn's senior prom. Pictured
below, right to left, are: Lynn's best friend, McKenna; her date,
Chris; Lynn's boyfriend, Will (who is so tall he is accustomed to
bending at the waist when he is photographed); and the smiling,
glorious amazing Lynn.
Last year I wrote that the
junior prom was the beginning of a fifteen-month series of events
leading to Lynn's leaving for college. So far we've been through the
last hockey game, the last candlelight chorus concert, and the last
musical. Coming soon are the last spring chorus concert, the last
spring band concert, the academic awards night, the sports awards
night, and the graduation ceremony itself.
The next day Lynn and McKenna are leaving for their two-week Excellent
Adventure to Utah (where McKenna's father lives and where she will go
to college) and California. I'll be in Massachusetts at a writing event
for the second of those weeks. But the day after both of us get back
we'll have to go to Lynn's new school, Millersville University, for
family orientation. The forms for this event are downstairs bearing a
May 1 deadline.
When I was a child my mother carried a poem in her prayer book that
she'd cut from a magazine. It was a series of images of a daughter, and
ended with "She's dew, she's gold, she's ten years old, and I wish
she'd stay that way."
I've opened this file, but I think I'll let the picture take care of
the thousand words. She's dew, she's gold, she's eighteen years old,
and I weep that she can't stay that way while I can't wait to
see what comes next.
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